(Asri Rajbhandari, IX ‘D’)
I have been thinking about my future for a while. However, I always tend to get carried away thinking about it and detaching myself away from my own reality that is in front of me. I guess I’m acting like every other teenager living in delusion. I don’t like change and I’d like to keep it that way. Yet as every other teenager, I have a dream, at least, I think so.
After I graduate, I want to work so that I can save up enough to live in NYC. In my second years of +2, I want to be able to do as much as I can for me and my country. I want to start with volunteering in animal shelter and orphanages. I wanna focus on starting on my crochet business and working as a tutor or bakery worker. Maybe, I’m just living in the figment of my own imagination that I created for just a small boost of dopamine in high hopes that my future will be good.
My life reminds me of Sylvia Plath’s fig tree analogy. I had my dreams and goals written on different figs, contemplating my decisions and thinking of what I can be or what I could’ve become.
I want to study pharmacology or pharmacy yet there’s still a part of me who wants to be a fashion stylist. If I had more lives, I would love to accomplish all my dreams.