I always end up alone to be spacing out in my own world. I have friends, a ton of them, but at the end of the day, I have no one. No one but myself. Even now, I am here, hanging out with my friends. They are laughing, giggling and enjoying themselves but here I am…SPACED OUT…LOST. I am not there even if I am..
Every thing feels so strange. My mind keeps drifting back to the thoughts I don’t want to remember. I am not a part of the conversation they’re having. I am not a part of what they’re making memories with. Everybody is busy with one another.
But me? I sit alone with a phone in my hand wanting to talk to someone but scrolling endlessly. They are engaging me too, time to time in the conversations but it feels surreal; it wouldn’t matter had I not been here…